5.11.2008

HI I AM WILL

todae morning i juz wrote a post.
n now another 1..
were at home the whole dae..
its mother's dae..but mummy not at home.
she is over at fren hse playin mj..
ok..
cool.
so i stayed home whole dae.
thought of him,msn,audi.
y do i stil tink of him so freaking much?
is he tt impt?
maybe he is just something i m used to have..
maybe he is not that impt..
he is juz smth i feel lyk having..
maybe he is v impt..
he is juz smth i need to have..
gals flirt with him..
the onli ting i can do is juz stare n look.
he is nt mine..
i cant sae aniting..
even if i do it doesnt matter to him..
seeing people leaving him comment lyk..
u r so loved by___
can i take yr pic n put in my blog..
my heart get super sour..
y would a gal take his personal pic n put on her blog?
y would gal keep asking him if he is single..
it make it sounds lyk he is attached but acting single..
if he is single,y would he constantly call mi checking bout mi?
i reali wonder what i m to him..
my dream tale,my fairyland,my prince charming..
is it all gone?
i have been trying to spend my time on cca n stuff to make myself tired..
so tt i couldnt think of him..
but he is lyk a tumour.
keeps on growing..
onli wae to cut it off is to go for opt..
so i shld go to hell n drink meng po tang?
or go bang my head til i have memory loss..
i miss him..
his hugs r jus so warm.
his lips r jus so soft..
i m totally over him..
insanity i guess..
i had been thinkin bout sch.
i seems to be walking so fast..
trying to make lame jokes so tt ppl lauff..
maybe this wae i wil be laufing too?
maybe i could stay happy temporary liddat..
my sch work had been lyk wth..
i didnt even realise that sch had started n there is exam coming soon..
did i even noticed that how many sunrise n sunset had gone past?
its all goin too fast..
i didnt realli slow down and look at the people in the past..
the gals,my family,frens..
i realli misses all of them..
i misses all e fun i had before..
the company of true frens being by my side..
every dae is the same routine..
sch home slp,sch home slp..
where would i be in the future..
yr wife?someone's husband?dead?
i do not know..
life is short,spend it wisely

HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY MUMMY!!
BYE I AM WILL

5/11/2008 06:54:00 PM